The room went silent so violently that I actually heard my own heart monitor skip a beat. The rhythmic beep-beep-beep faltered, mirroring the sudden, icy drop in my chest.
Five newborns slept under the warm, hum-shielded lights of the neonatal intensive care unit. Their tiny chests rose and fell in unison, their little fists curled tightly under their chins like they were holding onto secrets the world wasn’t ready for. I was still bleeding, still trembling from the massive physical trauma of the surgery, and still half-drugged on a cocktail of painkillers.
Yet, the fog in my brain vanished the moment my husband, Richard, took a stumbling step backward. He looked at the five incubators as if the fragile lives inside them were laced with poison.