“Why take me? You have nothing. Now you have nothing plus a woman who cannot even see the bread she eats.”
She heard him shift against the doorframe. “Perhaps,” he said softly, “having nothing is easier when you have someone to share the silence with.”
The weeks that followed were a slow awakening. In her father’s house, Zainab had lived in a state of sensory deprivation, told to be still, to be quiet, to be invisible. Yusha did the opposite. He became her eyes, but not through simple description. He painted the world in her mind with the precision of a master.
“The sun today isn’t just yellow, Zainab,” he would say as they sat by the river. “It’s the color of a peach just before it bruises. It’s heavy. It’s the feeling of a warm coin pressed into your palm.”
He taught her the language of the wind—how the rustle of the poplars differed from the dry rattle of the eucalyptus. He brought her wild herbs, guiding her fingers over the serrated edges of mint and the velvet skin of sage. For the first time in her life, the darkness wasn’t a prison; it was a canvas.
She found herself listening for the rhythm of his return each evening. She found herself reaching out to touch the rough fabric of his tunic, her fingers lingering on the steady beat of his heart. She was falling in love with a ghost, a man defined by his poverty and his kindness.
But shadows always lengthen before they vanish.
One Tuesday, emboldened by her new autonomy, Zainab took a basket to the village edge to gather greens. She knew the path—forty paces to the large stone, a sharp left at the scent of the tannery, then straight until the air cooled by the creek.
“Look at this,” a voice hissed. It was a voice like broken glass. “The beggar’s queen out for a stroll.”
Zainab froze. “Aminah?”
Her sister stepped into her personal space, the scent of expensive rosewater cloying and suffocating. “You look pathetic, Zainab. Truly. To think you’ve traded a mansion for a mud hut and a man who smells of the gutter.”
“I am happy,” Zainab said, her voice trembling but certain. “He treats me as if I am made of gold. Something our father never understood.”
Aminah laughed, a high, sharp sound that startled a nearby crow. “Gold? Oh, you poor, sightless fool. You think he’s a beggar because he’s poor? You think this is some tragic romance?”
Aminah leaned in, her breath hot against Zainab’s ear. “He isn’t a beggar, Zainab. He’s a penance. He’s the man who lost everything in a gamble he couldn’t win. He’s not staying with you out of love. He’s staying with you because he’s hiding. He’s using your blindness as his cloak.”
The world went silent. The sounds of the birds, the water, the wind—all of it vanished, replaced by a roaring in Zainab’s ears. She stumbled back, her cane striking a root, nearly sending her sprawling.
“He’s a liar,” Aminah whispered. “Ask him about the ‘Great Fire of the East.’ Ask him why he can’t show his face in the city.”
Zainab fled. She didn’t use her cane; she ran on instinct and agony, her feet finding the path back to the hut through sheer desperation. She sat in the dark for hours, the cold earth seeping into her bones.
When Yusha returned, the air felt different. The woodsmoke scent of him now smelled like burning deception.
“Zainab?” he asked, sensing the shift. He set a small parcel on the table—bread, perhaps, or a bit of cheese. “What’s happened?”
“Were you always a beggar, Yusha?” she asked. Her voice was hollow, a reed snapping in the wind.
The silence that followed was long and heavy, thick with the things left unsaid.
“I told you once,” he said, his voice stripped of its poetic warmth. “Not always.”
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