“Very.”
“Could she sing?”
“Absolutely not.”
He laughed.
Then:
“Do I look like her?”
For eighteen years, I had deliberately avoided searching for Marissa in Noah.
Now—
she was everywhere.
His smile.
The little dimple in his cheek.
The way his left eyebrow lifted when confused.
“Yes.”
I touched his shoulder.
“You look a lot like her.”
I NEEDED TO KNOW HOW HER STORY ENDED
At the bottom of the box was an old address book.
Inside was the contact information for Marissa’s mother.
Rachel.
They had been estranged for years.
I had met Rachel only twice.
Marissa rarely discussed her.
I stared at the number for nearly an hour.
Then I called.
A woman answered.
“Hello?”
“Is this Rachel?”
“Yes.”
“My name is Ethan Carter.”
Silence.
Then:
“Marissa’s Ethan?”
My throat tightened.
“Yes.”
Rachel began crying before I asked the question.
MARISSA DIED SEVEN MONTHS AFTER LEAVING US
Rachel told me everything.
Marissa had contacted her because she had nowhere else to go.
The cancer had first appeared as an abnormality doctors noticed during late-pregnancy bloodwork.
Further testing revealed it had already spread.
There was no realistic cure.
Only hospice.
Rachel cared for her until the end.
“Why didn’t you call me?”
“She made me promise.”
“That doesn’t make it right.”
“I know.”
“You should have let me choose.”
“I know.”
“She should have let me choose.”
“I know.”
Rachel cried.
“I have regretted it every day for eighteen years.”
Then I asked:
“Did she talk about Noah?”
Rachel’s voice broke.
“Every day.”
NOAH SPOKE TO HIS GRANDMOTHER FOR THE FIRST TIME
Their first phone call lasted nearly an hour.
Noah asked everything.
“What was Mom’s favorite food?”
“Did she like movies?”
“Was she good in school?”
“Did she talk about me?”
Rachel answered:
“Every day.”
Noah went quiet.
“Until she died?”
