And my seventeen-year-old stepdaughter, Tessa, was doing what she had done around me for almost four years.
Pretending I barely existed.
Marcus and I had been married for three years, but I had known Tessa for almost four.
In all that time, I had never asked her to call me Mom.
I never tried to compete with her biological mother.
I never demanded affection.
I understood from the beginning that I had entered a family with history that existed before me, and I tried hard to respect it.
Maybe too hard.
When Tessa needed a ride to debate practice, I drove her.
When Marcus forgot to order her birthday cake until two days before her party, I found the bakery that could make the lavender frosting she wanted.
When her laptop died halfway through sophomore year, I quietly covered half the replacement cost because Marcus was short that month.
I never told her.
I did not want generosity to feel like leverage.
Still, whenever someone asked who I was, Tessa never said stepmother.
She said, “Marcus’s wife.”
Sometimes she said it while I was standing right beside her.
Marcus always had an explanation.
“She’s still adjusting.”
“She doesn’t mean anything by it.”
“Teenage girls are complicated.”
“Don’t take everything personally, Claire.”
So I learned not to.
Or at least I learned to pretend I didn’t.
That afternoon, I had spent most of the cookout helping Marcus’s sister, Robin, move food between the kitchen and the patio.
It gave me something to do.
Keeping busy was easier than spending three hours wondering whether Tessa was glaring at me because I had spoken to her too much or because I had not spoken to her enough.
Around five, Robin pushed through the screen door carrying an empty bowl.
“Claire, would you grab the sweet tea from the kitchen? Mom’s already complained twice.”
I laughed.
“Only twice? She’s losing her touch.”
Inside, I filled a large glass dispenser with ice and tea, then carried it toward the patio.
The container was heavy enough that I had both hands wrapped around it.
Through the screen door, I could hear Marcus laughing loudly at something his brother had said.
Tessa stood only a few feet from the doorway with two cousins, typing on her phone.
I nudged the door open with my hip.